Long Day

It was a long day today. Spent two hours with the councillor *yay* heh... I'm not fond of sessions of that nature.. however they can be useful tools. I'm working on ways that I can bring my heart rate back down when I become anxious.

I've also discovered that I've been having anxiety attacks for years... I took my med (NOT Zyban...) lol and I can't remember the actual name! And it calmed me right down... for the first time in forever I found something that could stop the rushing of thoughts and emotions that come with it.

But I'm really drowsy (side effects) My Councillor believes I could have PTSD... and RLS is most likely the culprit for my sleeping problems. Amitrixiline is pronoun in increasing the vividness of dreams and I should go see a specialist to deal with my PTSD.

Yay... more appointments... more talking about the magicalness of my childhood and relationship with my parents. Councilors are great... but I've learned the best thing you can do is give them all the information... don't make them try and pull it out of you. If you're honest and upfront and actually work with them to help you they're great... if you're resistant it's a lot harder for them to help you and it'll be a lot harder on you - it's their job to sit and listen to how much of a sob-story your life is and offer advice on how to cope.

What interested me the most about the lady I talked to today was that she has fibromyalgia and got it to go into remission for 15 years.... perhaps she can help me :)

It's only 7pm and i'm SO tired... I need a nap.

G'night.

*HappyThoughts*