Mercury

Maybe in a moment of suffering you get a glance into the true flaws of humanity. The simple flaws stem from that we are not perfect... that we are creatures who have the ability to think of the outcomes of a possible situation and draw conclutions on what will be the most benifitial... and yet still are able to make a choice that could be more detrimental than good.

When one is suffering it can become apparent that one's will is often not strong enough to will oneself to a task. Sometimes you're just not strong enough and you have to take the easy way out.

The easy way out for me is to leave the situation... sit in a dark room away from noise and relax. Sometimes I wish I was strong enough to stick it out to the end of the night.

I feel like little peices of me shatter away day after day.

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This kind of thinking is no good. I need to start thinking positive.

Gah....